[205] Ummm...

Translation: Delirium-Zer0

I decided to write again since everyone's messages were so concerning.

So uh.... um.... it's like...

I, as much as I can, and in my own words, have been wanting to tell you all my thoughts on what's been happening. I figured for sure you would all understand.

Um... yeah. I believe that.
So, I'm writing it, you know?
But even though I love my family, and my staff, I didn't even tell them about it.

No... that's not totally true.
Mama (that's Mikajohn) is the only one I told.
That my left ear couldn't hear.

I decided to go to the hospital, because it felt like something terrible had happened to my ear.

It is because of my new ear monitor, I'd say to everyone.

Honestly, when I heard the doctor say it was untreatable, that I'd come to the hospital too late, my mind went blank.

I have to tell you, in my heart, I can't help but wonder that if I'd had an operation done earlier, maybe I'd have been able to save my hearing.

But no.

Even now I can see the doctor's eyes from that moment. They seemed regretful, apologetic...

So, I smiled.

"Dunno why I knew you'd say that, but I should smile!" I said, and I did smile.
The staff, who i love, were all around me in my quiet hospital room.

But, what I'm saying here, I ask you not to see it in a pessimistic way.

I'm just reacting to the truth of all this.

So, I'm trying not to be sad, I want the light of hope to shine, and I want you to please understand.

It's because everyone said things like, that they should become my left ear, and cry out louder & louder so I can hear you more & more.

Right?

So, I go forth with the right ear that I still have.
I don't think that's an unreasonable thing to do.
It would be best for me.

Nothing to worry about!!!!!!!!!!!

From now on, even as things are, I'm gonna keep on going~~~~~!!!
Come on together with me, everyone~~~~~!!!!!!

I want to show you a dream.
It's neverending, It's invisible
This kind of dream, I want to see.
This is my wish.

Thank you, everyone, everyone, everyone...
Thank you, Mama (Mikajohn).
Thank you.

I love you, Aneki.

Let's go on to my 10th year!!!!!!!!!!!!

[204] P.S.

Translation: Delirium-Zer0

My resolution this year is tough.

Before the new year, I had an exam on my ears, but my left ear has completely gone deaf, and there's no therapy or treatment that can be done.

Despite that, I still wish to remain a vocalist.

So, until I get to the point where my right ear doesn't work anymore, I'll keep singing.

No giving up.

No making excuses.

I'm a pro, so I'll keep delivering songs that you all can be proud of.

I don't usually like saying "do your best" really, but....

I'm gonna do my best!!!! Definitely!!!

Until that someday...

[200] Digital Single

Translation by Delirium-Zer0 based on an automated translation. Revision by D-Z to come soon.

This is the first time that I've released a digital single,
and we've finished shooting the cover & the PV.

To end the message, here are "Together When..."'s chorus lyrics:

I wanted to say thank you
But I couldn't say thank you
Because it seems too much like an eternal good-bye

it is too sad
And so if I am reborn one day,
I will probably travel around searching for you.

[199] No Title

Translation: evolusean

Just the other day, I lost someone very special to me.

To tell the truth, I was panicking right up until the recording...
That I just wouldn't be able to sing.

But watching from the monitor in the greenroom
How everyone looked as they came into the studio,
Some with kind of excited faces, some with really happy faces,
I knew I had to pull it together.

And then somehow I was able to make it through and sing to the end.

And so I really want to thank you.
Thank you for everything.

And thank you Mika John,
For pushing me to go on stage.

[197] I'm in charge of...

Translation: Criminal and Delirium-Zer0

Torio Band's clothing!
Of course I'm giving it
my best shot！！！And all my time！！！
And all my love to Torio Band! (*^_^*)
It's very rare that a T-shirt is made without mistakes！！！！！
Everyone get well(*^^)v
Details are at Enrique's blog♪

[164] Arararararaa~!!!

Translation: Delirium-Zer0

The new song is done and it's good!! ∈^0^∋♪

I want to get it out to everyone quickly. I'm just ITCHING for it!(^x^)

It's a mid-tempo ballad composed by Tetsuya Yukumi & Arranged by HAL.

It was so much fun to do!

Well, tomorrow I'm going to go do a SMAP x SMAP recording! (^_-)-☆

[163] Aah~Aah~ Aaaaahhhaaaaaaaahhh~~~!

Translation: hiroyuki

Yes, those who have seen the title and are able to sing the song, are remarkable! Correction!!!

Unfortunately, for those who cant understand, here's the answer!!!

It was "Kita No Kuni Kara" by Sada Masashi \(^O^)/ ♪
Hahahahaha~~~~~~\(^O^)/\(^O^)/\(^O^)/


... Hmm no special reason for mentioning this, but it seems to be a perfect time to mention this. [Laughs]

This song has been playing in my head on my way home. I'm very excited. [Supposed to be asleep]

Actually, besides being involved in Live practices, the promotion of both Black and White albums has been rather incredible.

Though I'm a little irritated, with all those appearances in magazines and music shows, please look forward to the broadcast when shown!!!!!
Please don't ignore me!

Oh yeah, the new song must be finished soon~！！！（What's today's date?）
Yes, now must do my best and start recording the song~♪

We must all wait for different kind of things(^・^)chu☆