[224] Arrival o/~

Translation: Delirium-Zer0

I've arrived to the piece & quiet of my hotel in Osaka~ (^_^)b
So, I'm gonna eat well and get plenty of sleep, and then tomorrow & the day after, I'm gonna put on the best shows ever!
I'll only be drinking alcohol in moderation, yeees...... haha.


Everyone I met at Haneda and Kansai airports gave me sooooooooo many smiling faces, thank you all! (*^_^*)
Aawwwwwww, everyone, I love you! (*^_^*)(*^_^*)(*^_^*)



After this, I think I'll be looking at all the letters & presents you've been so kind as to send o/~
And then I'll check out the writings from everyone in TA o/~








kimi ga mou kore ijou,
nidoto kowai mono wo minakute sumu no nara...


boku wa nan ni datte narou.


(If it means that you never again
have to look at anything that scares you...


I'll become anything you need.)

[223] Reborn!!!!!!!

Translation: Delirium-Zer0

I have done it o/~

Goodness gracious, for the 2 days in Kobe, everyone was really so concerned~ (v_v)...

I want to show everyone an everlasting and neverending dream (*^_^*)
But yeah, I kept thinking, "when I do this stuff I think I make everyone uneasy!!!!" and I started hating myself... >_<....


But I'm okay now!------ \(^O^)/\(^O^)/ o/~
Mr. Cold Virus, seems to have made his journey away from my body, and I'm jumping for joy!



Since my time in Kobe finished, I've finished filming 2 new CMs that I feel pretty good about, and tomorrow I'll be making my happy-happy way to Osakaaa~~~~~~~~~~ ∈^0^∋




Let's go, ooooosakaaaaaa~~~~~~~~~~~ (^O^)/

It'll be two straight days of perfection!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Bwahahaha.



Mama (Mikajohn) is yelling at me so I hafta go sleep noooow~ \(^_^)BYE*






Sou boku wa yuku. (Yes, I'm going)
furikaerazu ni, nigetasazu ni, kao wo agete, aruite ikunda. (I won't look back, I'm not running away, I raise my head & walk forward.)
boku wa mou mo boku de aritsuzukeru shikanai koto wo. (I, on my own, keep going on, it's something I have no choice about)
kimi wa itsuka wakatte kureru darou (I would like you to someday understand.)

[221] That's right.

Translation: Delirium-Zer0

...what's right?

Well um, during the Hiroshima performances, I came down with a cold. *facepalm*
Because of that, I couldn't go to Okonomimura (aka Okonomiyaki Village, this place in Hiroshima with tons of restaurants. --Deli), which I always look forward to.
(Maybe things will still turn out okay somehow.)

I'm soooo sorryyyyy (>_<)

Everyone in the send-off team, the meeting-up team, and everyone in the venue seemed to me thinking "ayu doesn't look too great....", but it was the number of posts here saying "AYU ARE YOU OKAY~(>_<)???" that made me finally give myself up.

Now now, that's no good.
I am no good!!! I need to be more stable!!!!!

Since perfectly ending the run in Fukui, the cold virus was hidden in my body, and I guess I wasn't thorough enough when I told it to go away!!!!!!!!
Ugh, enough is enough already~.

As I write this entry, I'm in my home with a muffler wrapped around my neck. I looked all mysterious.

Will you be uploading Today's Photo soon, KAZ?

[219] Whew.

Translation: Delirium-Zer0

Everyone in Fukui's power was just full of unwavering enthusiasm! \(^O^)/

Things went great for two days, but upon returning to Tokyo I came down with a nasty cold, so for the time being i'm taking some down time YO.(=_=)

Because of that, I still have a weak voice but for a different reason YO. (-_-)

But until the shows restart in Nagoya, again & again & more & more It's a reeeeeeaaaaaaaallllly hot couple of days YO. ∈^0^∋ o/~

So on the MY STORY Tour, during the MC in Nagoya (it's on the DVD, right?), I was aaalways yelling, really so full of energy, so somehow I know it'll be amazing this time too~~~~~~~ NE (*^_^*)

Look forward to it, Nagoya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Muwahahaha...

[218] Fukui...

Translation: Delirium-Zer0

Happy-happy Fukui!!!

Everyone's enthusiasm, and power, and encouragement & applause, everything, impacted my heart so greatly that I felt from the first song that I could cry...

Honestly, today, everyone's feelings were overflowing, and for the whole time we were in the venue, right until the end it was amazing!
At any rate, today was amazing!!!!

Tour staff & ayu's staff & the band & the dancers, just everyone who was here today was amazing~∈^0^∋∈^0^∋ o/~
After the end of the show, they had risen to their peak(.)Impressed-


(T.T)(T.T)(T.T)


Ah, I'm too happy, I'm not using very good words right now.
But I wanted to communicate this joy, so that's what came out.

Let's make the show absolutely the best tomorrow too!!!!!!!
Well, we can do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I mean, it'll succeed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



With that, squeaky-voice me is quietly going to get in the bath & get ready to sleep...



I think I'll have nice dreams (*^_^*)

Nighty-night~ (^.^) *smooch*

[216] COME ON, DAMMIT!!!!

Translation: Delirium-Zer0

Three days have passed since the second Shizuoka show, when my voice died...

I still have a squeaky voice though, what the hell...

As for that, it seems my vocal chords are damaged----...

Of course I have to ignore the phone.
Every day, really by only writing things down & e-mailing can I complete my work & private-life stuff....

Why isn't my voice better~~~!!!?!?

I have two more days until I need it to come back.

It absolutely, absolutely must heal.

The band & dancers, not to mention all the many staff members, are kind enough to make such a wonderful show, but if my singing, which is vital, can't be relied upon, then there's no point to their hard work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm sure a miracle will surely happen...

Come on!!!!!

[215] Aaaahhh...

Translation: Delirium-Zer0

At the end of the Encore part of today's show, my voice stopped workiiing...>_<...

Around the time I said "Omae dare da?" (lol), I opened my mouth and out came this squeaky girly voice to sing the last song... (-_-)
During dancer introductions, it was this weak granny's voice (LOL)
It's very very well-known among us that the dancer Chisa-chan has the squeakiest voice, but tonight I have surpassed her in that department.(lol)

Since then I've heard that Armageddon (that's Saitou from security) had an even higher voice than Chisa-chan!!!!!! (*_*) I GIVE UP~(ROFL)

But you know, everyone's power in Shizuoka was really so great. So when everyone's feelings called out to me, I wanted to respond to them, and I truly wanted to convey my feeling of thanks by just yelling it out really excitedly.

But regretfully, I couldn't! >^_^< o/~
Because concerts are like living things.
And because we are all humans.
The same moment on the same stage will never exist again.
Each time, the audience can change, the me, the band, the dancers, and even the staff that rise up to the task of putting on the show, each version of us only gets to play the game one time really.
So the concert we put on today was this one, I guess.
It's behind us, it's away from us... d(^-^) Right?

Of course, looking forward to the next show, we'll definitely be restoring it to perfect condition, so we're working on it! As a singer, from now on I'll be devoting myself to perfection & problem solving with professional gusto. ('_')v Yup!

So there's that, but now for a subject change...
This year's tour, with all the news of my 10th Anniversary and my ear, wherever I go the audience's cheers & applause are amazing. Really amazing!!! (.)So Moving-...

I mean it's always been amazing, but somehow this year's tour feels more complete, no matter what the venue, the feeling of love is overflowing.

Everyone, let's give all our cheers, clap our hands, and make the every performance's atmosphere REALLY amazing... (T_T) *teary-eyed*

Aah, I'm likely to really cry, writing like this (lol)
Because everyone's thoughts regarding me have gotten to me (>_<)!!!

And, this tour, everyone I meet & say goodbye to is breaking into cheers!
During all the various events, it seems I can meet so many dazzling faces.
Really, you're all so kind... m(__)m

It's selfish, but the time I talk to everyone, before & after the shows, warms my heart.
Please be more greedy about talking to me!
I'm not very good at talking to shy peoppllle.....(lol)

So yeah. I'm a flesh & blood person too, so I'm not high strung all the time.
But you know, as worn out as I can get, I do wonder what kinds of questions people have, anyway,,,,,,,



All your smiling faces are, as far as I'm concerned, the best energy source after all (*^_^*)

I've only been living squeezing things in at the last minute, so this is a very awkward & clumsy me who cannot yet really become an adult.

Thank you always & forever.... for the many smiling faces & tears that you've given until now, and will give from now on.

I still have a ways to go this 10th Anniversary year, with everyone's help I can continue rise up to my peak~~~~!!
Let's make tooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnns of good memories!!!!!!!

Alrighty.
Next, look forward to Fukui~~~~~~ (^.^) *smooch*

And again, I promise to make it the best two days ever (^_-)v
Yeah, let's do this!!!!!!!!!! \(^O^)/ o/~

you guys are MY ALL....... `\^_^

[212] Aaaaaah~! P.S.!!!

Translation: Delirium-Zer0

I had a thought that I forgot (haha) to write about just then,
so I'm back.

Okay, so, for this show (this isn't a spoiler so it's okay o/`)
naturally, the usual Peco & Chiharu & Etsu
have been choreographing & arranging some of the dance numbers. However, my dancers Zin & Subaru, as well as Kayanocchi and others, are doing the choreography & arrangement of dance numbers toooo o/`

In addition, directing the on-screen videos, of course Wataru Takeishi, and also Takahide Ishii, did some extremely good work. But..... what!!!!! Our very own MR. KAZ has achieved his directorial debut, making a few of the videos!

So I really want to give eeeeveryone an impression of everything behind the stage being very lovely & sweet.

Keeping that in mind, I want everyone to get in that mood while watching, and I want everyone to enjoy iiit~ o/`

And I'm going off-topic here now, but on Yoyogi's first day, I saw what looked like a black cloth banner with "SUBARU" written in huge pink characters? I think it was in the stands. The timing of it was really random. (laughing)
If you have the chance to come & show it again, please do!
That's the kind of intrusion I don't mind, do it to your heart's content. (hysterical laughter)

[211] Thank you.

Translation: Delirium-Zer0

The third day in Yoyogi is finished, and I kept coming here repeatedly & writing messages but erasing them, writing and erasing.... that's the sort of state I'm in.

Somehow, the more I summoned up my happy feelings to turn them into words, the more they seemed phony, the less genuine the message seemed to be.

But I think I've got it now.

Yes, excessive wordiness isn't needed.
Until now I was worried about appearances.

So.... I just want to say, purely & honestly, from my heart, that I love you all and I thank you so very much.

And also, in regards to me, you don't just agree with everything I do, sometimes you've been giving honest but harsh opinions, and I thank you for that.

Just as I was saying at the beginning of the year, the way I currently am, sometimes situations & conditions don't allow me to do things like singing songs & putting on a great show the way I'd like.

Honestly, coming to this place was the result of continuous, violent fights.
However, I asked for you to excuse my ear, and I didn't want to show anything done halfway, but making compromise & giving something up was disagreeable to me.
I'm doing this myself since it was me who chose to continue singing.

I'm sure everyone has many many various worries that they're not showing alot of, saying "Ayu is OKAY!!! (*^_^*)" because they want to create an environment where they can feel more relaxed.
So, this tour, until the end, to all my great friends and all my visitors, I want to send many many great memories one at a time.

Everyone, you are always the source of my power.

Thank you.
Thank you.

Thank you.

[157] Ah-ah-aack!!! (LOL)

Translation: maneayu, Masa, Delirium-Zer0

After the end of today's live, I happened to pass by the announcer girl while she was doing her job, and while I was being carried off by the staff, I went ahead and announced very shyly,

"Thank you very much for coming tonight!"

The way I said it was like an elevator girl! That had us laughing pretty hard.

As I was leaving the venue I got the feeling that alot of you noticed it, so I'm confessing it here!!!!! lol

It was very funny & oh so tense. XD!!

Well, the 2 days in Yoyogi have now passed!
Thank you aaaallll!!!! Heart.

[107] Hooottt!!!

Translation: kawai

Today is also very hot ne~.

I was happy when I saw the scenary and Marron outside the moving car when I opened the window wide. But it was a bit embarrassing whenever my eyes cross with the pedestrian who were waiting at the junction for the green light.

And now only ‘ã�X–Ø left for the (concert) tour.
The last location for the tour, Sendai was so energizing, really great place with nice feeling.
Mina arigatoooooo~!!!
But I feel a bit of lonelyness after the concert, ne.

The staff and dancers are also feeling that. They were saying things like
"It's going to be over and feeling a bit lonelyness, shall we tour around Japan some more?" Hahaha.

This year's hot summer is coming.....